Happy New Year

Wow. Can't believe it's been just under 16 months since my last post on this blog. That's insane. So much has happened that I really have no idea where to begin. I guess for starters, we're doing a LITTLE better with our relationship since we've been in counseling for almost 2 years. Hard to believe it's been that long since we've been in therapy. We're still dealing with some of the same old issues, and going around the same dumb mountain over and over again but somehow we're in a different place then we were when we started. Last night we got into a fight because Kenny shared with me that he was upset down-right offended that I fell asleep while he was rubbing my back before having sex with him. Seriously?! Does he hear himself when he says some of this shit stuff? I apologized and said I didn't do it on purpose, I was tired, and didn't we still continue? I kinda just needed to re-charge my batteries. But then it wasn't enough that we still "did it," now it's that it seemed impersonal. Well, maybe that's because YOU were mad and disconnected YOURSELF. D'ya ever think of that?! He continued on by saying how counseling isn't working, we're still dealing with the same stuff, we should just stop going to counseling and all this other BS....all in relation to him getting laid. SERIOUSLY?! Side note: this morning he apologized and said he didn't mean to come across the way he did and whatever but I still say, "out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks." If you're just referring to SEX in a conversation like that then chances are that's all you're worried about. Yeah, counseling is not working huh? Let's not think about the fact that we haven't killed eachother since starting counseling so maybe it's a good idea that we still go? Just a thought. I don't know. Whatever. That's all I can think of to write at the moment so I'm going to sign off. Good night.