Here we go again

Feelings are being stirred up again. Feelings of disappointment and sadness when I look at where my relationship with my sister has gotten to. If you ask her she'd probably say there's nothing wrong with "us," and she HAS basically said that in the not-so-distant past. It hurts that she's satisfied with what our relationship has become. If only she invested as much (or even 1/4) of the time and energy (and interest) in our relationship as she does with other people (mostly Krissy).

A week ago I called her up out of the blue asking if she wanted to take a ride to the OC Boardwalk because I heard they were having some Fall festivities happening and I wanted to bring the girls but didn't really want to go alone. She agreed and seemed all gungho about it so I picked her up around noon and we headed down. The ride there was interesting, almost a little awkward to be honest. We didn't really talk much. She text'd most of the time and the only time I could get her to talk to me was when I asked her about Krissy and the last male "prospect" in her life. Carrie had NO problem going on and on about THAT stuff but there were times she didn't even respond to something I said (in different conversation) because she was too distracted by her damn phone. Once we got down there she kinda did her own thing. I decided to bring the small stroller but had to go back to the car and get it. Both girls wanted to walk back with me but Carrie stayed up on the boards. Thanks alot. When I finally got back up to the boards she was nowhere to be found. I got a text saying she was on the beach. Oh. Ooookay. She didn't eat lunch (whatever, she said she ate before she left...but if she knew we were going to the boards why didn't she...oh forget it, it's not worth it) and pretty much text'd all through lunch. We met up with Keith, Kaiya and the boys for the last 30 minutes and when it came time to do the hayride back down the boardwalk she said, "I don't really have to do the hayride do I? I don't really feel like it." Wow. Thanks. So even when I reach out to you on the basis of which you prefer (spontaneously) you're STILL not really THERE with me. I completely give up. Since our talk this past summer she has yet to reach out to me to do anything with JUST US. Sure she's invited me to lunch with her and Krissy a few times but it's never just us. Nothing has changed and she doesn't care. Oh well. Kinda sucks that our therapy session is cancelled for this week. I really could've used it.