You know what would be nice?

I'd love it if someone could actually look beyond HOW I'm delivering my feelings and focus on how I'm actually feeling and try to help me work through the situation and help reign in my emotions. Oh wait, there is someone who does that...it's my therapist. Nope not my husband, my therapist. Is there something wrong with that? I don't know. These last few years (but moreso the last 6 months) I've really been wondering if Kenny and I are good for eachother at all. I hear other couples talk about how their significant other really balances them out, calms them down when they're a wreck, etc. Well, instead of bringing out the BEST in eachother, Kenny and I seem to bring out the WORST. I'm not sure anymore if this is something that has come to the surface over the last 2 years of stress (being unemployed, having no money, having 2 kids back-to-back, etc) or if it's always been there and we were too blinded by "love" to see it. Instead of trying to help me come back down to earth if I'm flying off the handle about something he gets mad at me over the way I'm expressing myself (words I may use, etc) and makes the situation 100x times worse. Can't he just try and see how I'm feeling and be tender and kind? Even if he doesn't know what to say at least be tender and kind to your wife. The Bible says that husbands are supposed to love their wives as Christ loves the Church. What does that look like? Certainly NOT the way Kenny responds to me (unless you count the 10 minutes we're in bed together once a week). I'm not feeling too much like the Church these days and it breaks my heart.